Fearless
FEARLESS….my word for 2021. If you ask Webster, the definition of fearless: Brave. This has been my focus for 2021 and whenever I am faced with a decision big or small…I will lead with fearlessness. It’s just about half way through 2021 and in my continued pursuit to lead with fearlessness, I AM starting a blog (that my friends is positive manifesting right there!) Scotty & Maggie were quite amused when I told them their mother was going to become a blogger. I believe Scotty’s comment was “Mom is always doing something” and Maggie looked at me with ‘her look’ and said “OK Mom”. I will happily except both of those reactions and they actually quite amused me!
I want to push my self outside my comfort zone and face the fears that stop me from living all of my soul’s callings. Achieving Dharma in my life is a constant beacon in the fog of society and there is no room for fear to be driving that dream. There are many translations for the word Dharma, in one branch of Buddhism it is defined as the cosmic law & order, the conformity to one’s duty & nature. What does all that mean? It can be interpreted many ways. My belief, it means I need to live my authentic self, void of what people and society spew at me and the Universe will be my constant cheerleader along the way. I believe a person has many callings in life and it is important to listen to the whispers of your soul. I have recently started to journal when my soul calls to me…a lot of time those calls come at 3 in the morning. Instead of the pattern of frustration with not sleeping I continually allowed in my head, I now listen. I listen to what I wake up to in the quiet of the night. My normal routine would have me laying for hours totally stressed out about things in my world that look much darker at that hour, and the frustration of not sleeping. I have worked on changing those middle of the night awakenings from frustration to manifestation. Manifesting my desires….listening to what my soul is whispering to me and instead of worrying about it, flipping the story in my head. I am a huge believer of manifesting what I want to bring into my world. My middle of the night awakenings leading to frustration was a form of manifestation, but not the positive energy I desire in my life. I just must flip the script in my head! I believe that one of the greatest gifts….the greatest route to peace, is learning how to control and navigate our minds. What we believe we become .…our brains can lead us down negative paths and lives or it can lead us to our true alignment and happiness. It takes work, it takes constant re-routing, it takes trusting in a universal power (whatever that might be for you), it takes gratitude, it takes loving yourself and taking action. That flipping of my fears to my desires….is manifesting and yes, even at 3AM I must embrace it. Taking the worry and flipping it to what I choose, what outcome do I want to manifest? I am not saying it is easy, but I am saying with 100% confidence that if you keep trying, it does become easier and possible. Our minds seem most comfortable going back to fear, negativity and doubt. We must be aware and be willing to redirect our thinking, even if you have to do it an endless amount of times. It is so important to be able to control and guide our thoughts but boy is it challenging at times. It does get easier and not only are those redirections kinder to our mind & body, they also allow you to be able to fall back asleep quicker which is a big bonus!
My new blog can bring a lot of fear and negative energy into my mind. Can I be real, relatable, allow myself to be vulnerable and does anyone really care what I have to say? Again, I must flip the script….I know in my soul this is one of my life’s callings and I must fearlessly pursue. It is not my desire to have 10 million people read my blog…It is my desire to have one of my blogs connect with one person. I have experienced so much growth over the years from hearing people’s perspective on their life’s joy, their life’s challenges, simply their journeys and that is my hope for my blog. Listen, I am not a writer, nor therapist, I am a constant, growing work in progress but maybe the way I process some of my life’s journey might encourage and give pause to a different perspective for even one person.
My desire for my blog is to be a creative outlet and bring my life’s journey into light through my love for exploring the nooks and grannies of the world, appreciation of everyday moments and of course the savior in my life…..gratitude. I am who I am because of gratitude and have maneuvered life living in gratitude. I once had someone ask me just a few months after Scott had spiritually transcended and I was doing my best, through immense fear, to be the rock my kids needed. “How is it you can be so happy with everything you are going through?” My simple answer was gratitude. Please don’t for one second think that it was or is always easy, I had and still have immense moments of grief, disappointment and anger but it goes back to previously mentioned, flipping the script. I was grateful then and I am grateful now for everything I do have in my life. Just as the lotus…we all go through a lot of hard times, so called mud and muck, but we all can still have a beautiful life and bloom into a beautiful flower.
Our minds are our most powerful tool in this world…..what we think we will become, what we feel we will attract. I will end this first blog with a quote I have on my refrigerator …
“Because to be alive is to suffer, and to marvel at moments of serendipitous beauty, and everything in between. The world is neither a terrible nor wonderful place-its both. You choose what reality you focus on.”
Peace, love & happiness,
Tami
